Hello 2026. In 2026, I have several resolutions. After writing them down in my journal, I summarized them in three words: slow, soft, and accepting.
1. Slow
Since moving to this city and without anyone personally more superior, I realized that life is slower. And that leads to a good meaning. Back home, there was my mother. She was super. From A to Z, she always prioritized a fast-paced life, where all problems had to be solved as quickly as possible. Everything had to be number one.
When I ended up having to move away, my life became a bit slower. And since September 2025, I have deliberately and declared in my personal journal that I will slow down even more. And! I feel sooooo happy. My life is conscious. Not everything has to be possible. Not everything has to be mine. If I really don't know the answer, I don't know. If I'm sad, I'm just sad. If I want to be reckless, then I'll be reckless. Nothing is held back as long as everything is within the norms.
And I don't have to fight for anything. It's okay if I don't have it. It's okay if I don't get it.
2. Soft
Then the slow pace in point number two spread to how I physically face the world. Sometimes I have to lose. Sometimes I have to meet toxic people. Sometimes I'm really kid. Yeah, I become lazy to talk, lazy to argue, lazy to clarify. If they think I'm like that and they're happy, then just keep going. Wkkwk.
Yes, I know, this one is a bit contradictory. My close friends have noticed it. But I want to save my energy for the things I want to do. To gain knowledge through books. To write useful things. To run. To climb mountains. To worship. To sleep soundly. I don't want anything else. Let the world and Allah take care of the rest. I want to soften my heart. Soften the way I see the world. Soften my words. I don't want to hold grudges. I don't want to force things. I don't want to be part of the world's hustle and bustle at all.
3. Acceptance
Finally, I accept everything about myself. The past. The present. And the future.
I accept that I have been foolish. I regret it, yes. But I no longer curse myself. I love myself as I am and will not allow anything that brings me harm to enter my life. I have the right to refuse.
2026, that's it. No resolutions to lose weight, be more beautiful, or anything like that. I also don't care about worldly achievements. I have made up my mind to slow down, be gentler, and wholeheartedly accept whatever God gives me. Puk puk myself with much much much of love.
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